collection of my daily thoughts

8/2/26 - i didnt even realize its already august and im lwk taking a small gap year..I LEGIT WANNA GET DRUNK SO BADLYYYY.. baileys sound so good like is it actually really sweet or what.. i fucking hate peach flavored soju its so bad bru i missed out an opppurtuinity to hangout with my hg but WE WILL DRINK NEXT TIME. im tired as shit by the way. pulled an all nighter, im being so fr the longest i stayed up was 3 days lol.



8/3/26 - sadly have to schedule some exams to get my certifications. its a bummer since "school" starts 8/10 but ofc im not in HS anymore so its like blehhh a bit weird? i have so much free time on my hands. PS. I HATE WORKING IN NURSING HOMES.. ik its required but its like.. i dissiociate a lot in there.. the conditions r so horrid and just seeing bedbound residents make me feel a bit empty ykw?



8/4/26 - guys.. i lowkey broke my bed by jumping on it.. one side of the bed is down im crine. im honestly pretty doing good in life even if weirdos keep dming me. i seriously think there are guys out there who pretend to be woman just to get them. its so fucking predatory and disgusting to me. i relate to asa mitaka so heavily..id like to also point out, I feel like everything happens for a reason. It's how life is, a whole learning experience. Absolutely terrible things happen to people and im specifically talking about fallling outs with friendships/relationships (humans r messy), but I feel like individuals should take a step back and ask themselves, "what is this teaching me?" As of now, I absolutely cannot bring myself to hate someone. Why waste your energy on that? Never blame yourselves and think "what's wrong with me?" when people are shitty to you. I myself was terrible and I take full accountability of that but give yourself grace ykw? Don't fall in that dark rabbit hole where you cannot imagine to forgive yourself but also at the same time, you can't expect everything to be spoonfed to you. You need to learn, you need to work for it, our mistakes, if you're open-minded enough or done the inner work to do so. Love yourself, user <3



My experience doing clinicals during my CNA training

Hello! I just really wanted to write down and share my experience since i recently completed my hours. Before I get started, I wanted to explain that clinicals is basically students shadowing and getting hands-on experience to show their skills under a CNA (Certified Nursing Assistant) and the Nurse. CNAS contribute to assisting nurses with bed patient care. But they could do so much more outside of that with their certification. Our days were only 2. We had to arrive at the nursing home around 6:45 a.m. Our shift was between 7-4. Honestly, this was such an awesom experience to meet and help residents who are in need. My unit had two sides and ours had feeders, bedbound residents, etc. We were split up into different sections. I got assigned to a partner (one of my classmates), and we basically did incompetent brief change, occupied bed, bedbath, showers, feeding, blood pressure, etc. The conditions of the nursing home was shocking really. Ive personally never been in one since this is my first healthcare experience I get. The nursing home in itself or actually a skilled nursing facility (SNF), was pretty big. The building is built on 3 floors so theres an elevator and independent residents basically can free roam, its their home essentially especially those who are in long-term care. BUT ANYWAY.. i will type more later.

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